Saturday, August 05, 2006

Old friend

I recieved a SMS from an old friend. She's in a good balanced relationship now, but feels guilty about our past. We were friends, yet she loved me more than just friends. I couldn't give her what she wanted because I only liked her as a "special" friend. I never meant for our intimate friendship to lead to that. What was I supposed to say? "Live your life.. be a good companion and look to the future" - *Sigh*. There is a lot of history there. I honestly wish her the best. Adios..

..dear friend.

8 comments:

SpiKeY said...

thats good man...as long as u think of her as a friend thats good...and wish her the best too....ams ure she thinks the same way 2...

Bella Color said...

y did she get in a relationship in the 1st place if she still has feelings for u... its not fair to her other partner...

Honeslty, i think u choose the right words to say... Its impossible to live in the past... whats done is done...

I wish her the best too :)

Transparently said...

Spikey,
Thanks man

Salty-c,
I don't think she shoud feel guilty either. I like your words.

Bella color,
You see, there is some truth to that. However, I won't question her reasons to get into a relationship. She's in a stage where she's ready to have a solid life. If she decided to go ahead she should handle her emotions. I'm not being mean, its just that she should know i'm still a friend and she should look forward not backwards.

sweetd said...

ur very brave and sweet for holding on to this friendship!:) its pretty difficult when uve been with someone in an intimate relationship

Transparently said...

Yeah difficult is true. It was quite a complicated relationship indeed. Intimate, yet only friends. I feel bad about it sometimes because I think it spurred her closer attatchment. I still do care for her. C'est la vie. She knows I'll always be her friend, when I think about that I'm always at ease.

fire alarm said...

I can relate to what you’re saying. I’m going through the same exact problem. What was a guilt-free fun relationship turned sour because she got emotionally attached which scared me and drove me away. Last month we were celebrating France reaching the finals and today I don’t go to the place we use to hang out to avoid running into her !! I hate losing friends.

By the way interesting stuff on ur blog

sweetd said...

ur a sweet person..wish the world had more people like u!

Transparently said...

Someone.